Friday, July 17, 2009

I remember the very last sonogram...



before he was born, for this, now ten year old boy. The doctor said, I can see that it is a boy, but I cannot see the other hand. Aren't you worried about that? No, I said, I know where the other hand is. He is my child, he has his fingers in his mouth. Sure enough, he did. He never really cried, he just stuck his fingers in his mouth and I think that he was born with the fingers in the mouth.:) I had lost all or most of my serotonin by that time and couldn't sit in the car or go through tunnels from the early part of that pregnancy through this day. I was the oldest mother in the hospital with him. 37? That seemed like being so old. Grandma Ruth was the pregnancy test for him. I came to the house and she was cooking ham and I walked right outside and thru-up all over the back yard. She said its a boy. I said Gram, I am not pregnant, she said yes you are, and now we are here. I guess I was.
We have been through all kinds of things together. He has very thick glasses and has broken a bone and has loved to read and write stories like his mommy. We were working on a book parallel to AA Milne's "When We were 6", when he was 6 and now he's 10. Do you think that we will ever finish? The things that thrilled him at 6 are so boring now. Time flies when you are having fun.
If we start the book when we were 10 right now, maybe I will finish by the time he is 20. Last year, the story was about Indiana Squirrel and getting free of the sibling directives. Not now. Now he is an independent fellow. Everyday I say where is Ethan. He is usually somewhere else on the block. I am so glad that I got to know him before now, or I would never meet him. He is launched already.
Jack Prelutsky is his favorite author and we laugh and laugh at some of the grotesque and silly things that Jack puts out there. We are a couple of wordaholics, Ethey and I. I am so glad that I have one wordy child. Dad and I used to have jokes and enjoyments from the written word.
The boy who we were worried about with tv falling on him and a mom who has been in and out of the hospital and who broke his arm within months of being down here is now in the double digits. It has been an awesome and wonderful part of the ride.


>My Ethan Baby
10 years old!
Ten years ago today, we didn’t know who you were.
10 years ago today, you were a mystery.
The sweetness of your smile.
The Funny things you say and do.
What a bright boy, you have become.
We used to read together, When we were…6,7,8,9
Now you are 10, 10, 10.
A decade years old.
This, first decade was a whopper.
You jumped on the scene with all of the power and strength of every other Walker man that I have ever known.
Grandma Ruth smiled ever so wide to see your little face. Grandpa Bob and My Dad were 60 and 80 years, your senior, almost to the day.
You were wished for. Exactly one year earlier, I saw cousin Ton,Ton and I kissed him and said, Oh my, oh my I want another one and you were more than I ever imagined that day. What a wish!
Take me half way across the sky. You have stretched me past my wildest dreams in having and knowing you and seeing your tremendous contribution to the family.
I do expect great things from you!

We were waiting, we were watching, you surprised us,
by your comforting,.
It was lonely, only 4 of themJ We were looking for someone special to love and God reached inside and sent us you. He did ,
Took us halfway, across the sky, Out where the hope is growing, we keep knowing why.
God is in charge. He gave us you. The precious picture of his love is here in view.

You’re impulsive and considerate,
You are helpful and sometimes obstinate,
We can trust you with responsibilities,
We see that you are the boy, we know is filling our hearts with love and precious peace.

Take me half way across the sky, You stretched my wildest dreams of only you and I
We went halfway across the sky, To catch a glimpse of God’s love beaming from your eyes.




By the way, the fingers are out of the mouth now!
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Title- The Studious One!

Title-  The Studious One!
artwork by Elyse

Of biscuits and syrup

Of biscuits and syrup
tasty treats

Happy Saturday!

Happy Saturday!
a day at the Raptor Center.

Widdle Emmie in outer space school

Emmie jumped on the bus and off it flew out into the atmosphere. There was a set of clouds with turbulence right above the house and it took a few minutes for my Emmie to buckle her seatbelt. They hit the bump hard and it knocked my Emmie out of her seat and she bumped her head. The video camera came on and the monitor looked through and stated, Ms. Emmie, where are you? You are not in your seat. Where are you? I am alright I fell because I hadn’t buckled correctly. Well jump up Emmie we have a long way to go and you have to be buckled there is entirely too much turbulence in the stratosphere for you to unbuckle now. As soon as we are through this weather system there will be straight sailing but right now you must buckle. Emmie scrambled into the seat with intensity and purpose now. She watched every cloud pass her window and her nose was pressed to the window trying to see the top of the house as it drifted slowly out of sight. Soon they were not only out of sight of the house, the sun came out brightly and just as quickly they were putting on the atmospherical breathing apparatus and the outerspherical lights. The ABA and the OL. These precautions were to make them appear to be satellites to the radar as they were out in the ionosphere. Emmie knew all about this now. She had gone to the orientation and had a good breakfast and it took them 20 minutes for her to get out past the atmospherical pull and to feel the zero gravity. It would be 15 minutes before the gravity simulators would take effect, a glitch in the system which was being worked on. Until then, they enjoyed the couple of minutes of floatation, while being connected to the seats by belt. The first thing they saw everyday was the strataflotsam. The items which had been dumped into the atmosphere by earlier generations. What would their generation do about this ecological waste area that remained floating above their heads? This was a question for the generations. For now it was the area that they had to guide through on the way to school.

Midnight at the OASIS

Midnight at the OASIS
Sunset in Huntersville

My little Emmie

ran to the bus on the first day of the last year of school. 2 buns on the side of her head. She kissed me and ran at dawn to the bus. She was starting the adventure of a lifetime. I would never see that little girl again, she was going to woman school!

My Father and I 1989

My Father and I 1989

to the tune of Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme

A VISIT TO PAPA











Are you going to Mary Immaculate?

Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



Remember me to the one who lived there,



He once was a true love of mine,



Tell him to buy me an acre of land,



Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



Between the muddy Hudson in Jamaica Bay,



Then, He’ll be a true love of mine,

Tell him to sow in it seeds of pure cream,



Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



And build Ice cream mountains and buildings of whipped cream,

Then, He’ll be a true love of mine,



Tell him to reap them with sickles of M&M’s,



Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



And chew bubble gum and eat till we’re done,



Then, He’ll be a true love of mine.



Tell him to run it off down the motor parkway,



Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



After your done 50 pushups



and jog down the West Side Highway,



Then he’ll be a true love of mine…

(Don’t wait for me today dad, The kids are sick again, My tummy’s bulging again, My heart is aching again, And now there’s no love there…)





He once was, a true love of mine….So, Girls, I do beg you don't miss your Daddy,Apricots, Chocolate cherries and Pie,You have one short chance to see him on this side, Go visit him and let your light shine.