The Cultural misfit---

Evvy and me at the awards ceremony

Oh my, Elyse and I started clapping Glory to God, this morning, when we heard the praises on the radio, in the gregorian style. We acted out and clapped and started chanting "Go! gregorian" Ben said that is inappropriate, you are not supposed to "act black" to not black music was his unspoken meaning. I thought it was glorifying God in the Holy Spirit. If it is the Holy Spirit, why can't we act out anytime Jesus is praised in truth? It is not dignified. When they sing gregorian, we don't praise Him like that. Why? We were not in public, we were in the car?

Don't mind her, he often says, she is not from this country, referring to me. The children know the appropriate times, for some reason. Whenever Black people- "go there" it is appropriate to "Praise Him" No matter what they are saying. I am sitting there saying, what are they getting excited about, she didn't say anything to glorify God. So we had an argument about it. Somebody is going to have to help you with your cultural misfortune, he said to me. You are so culturally stubborn. I am not trying to be culturally stubborn. I am trying to praise God. Nobody taught me how to be "Black". I learned to praise God and listen to the words, apart from the cultural rearing. So sometimes I am the only one praising God and shouting, like when we went to a concert of some children praising God, in Latin. Why are you shouting, Mommy? Don't you hear what they are saying, isn't it always right to praise the Lord, when children are praising Him? You are embarrassing us. I am sorry.

Ben saw a girl and said, she reminds me of you, because she speaks English.

I said, Honey, I am speaking slang, with you. I am trying to be Black. You know what I mean, he says. No, I don't. I speak the same English that you speak. No you don't, he says.

Now, I know that my husband thinks that I speak "sidditty". I married him to be "Black". No matter how much I try to fit in, He goes up to people and tells them, that I joke and do different accents. He will go to a strange person and tell them, my wife is from your country. He is not joking. Every other country, but Black America. I said is it not black to speak articulately. I am trying to pay you a compliment, He said. I missed that joke.

Aren't you happy to be articulate? Aren't you trying to be articulate? No! I have been trying to talk like you.

"What we have here is a failure to communicate!"