Saturday, January 24, 2009

JAAAY'ne, Juuuuu'lia, Jaaaa'queline, Joaaaaa'ne, AAAAA'my, Toooooo'ny boy....Aaaaa'bduuuul!




There are 2 sounds that I remember with awe that I will never hear again. The first is the sound of the whistle! You all know what that sound of terror was. Wherever you were from Baisley Blvd to Springfield Blvd. anywhere in Rochdale; if we heard the whistle the hair on our necks stood up and we were summoned to the tennis courts to conference. An unspoken command that was immediately obeyed and swift judgement might be forthcoming or not, but worse if you didn't heed. I hated that sound and I nearly jumped into the ocean one day out there in Battery Park when I heard an imitation whistle similar to that of my father's whhhhhhhoooooip!whhhhhhhoooooiiiiip! I am sad, but glad not to hear that sound because of the fear that it engendered. I understood the sound one day; when I couldn't get my children to come together and I was upset that I had no tool in my maternal arsenal akin to that sound that would immediately draw their attention. As Grandma Ruth would say, "God bless the child that's got his own!" Dad had his own in check and history will tell what mine will become and so I don't judge the sound I am just reminded to say I will never hear that sound in terror again. A bittersweet memory.
The other sound is the sound of the gentle tone of Dad's calling our names when he was calling us for some special or definite calm reason. Joy and expectation to fill the heart when his sing songy voice called out our names, almost always in order or one or the other by themselves, but always with the same melody. I wish that I could put that song to music. It lifts my heart when I think about the sound of the song of the names being called out for some good purpose, especially as opposed to the whistle. There were sprinkle cookies or a suzy Q certainly when the sound was heard in the house. It was a special occasion and there was the sound of our names still ringing in the house because he held onto the notes of our names as if not to let them go. I miss that sound! I miss my daddy and you guys too. It has been years and years since he was able to call our names in unison like that. Probably, only the older children remember the sound of his voice and the way that Papa would sing to the babies right in their mouths and right on their cheeks as a ritual of entering into the family. "Why, o why do I love you?"
The representation of good and evil which we are to the next generation is a solemn thing.
I called my Enoch and my pet name for him is Yanuch after Yanuch Noah and he may not like when I call him that name, I have my own sing songy versions of their names in the house these days. I remember, or try to remember that my authority and influence upon their lives is remembered, or will be and I must pray for the grace to be consistent. If there is anything that our dad was it was consistent. Extreme, I hope not to be, but consistent, help me, dear God.

3 comments:

Joanne Bodden said...

Hey Jayne
This means there is a song in your heart one we all can sing:>>> I remember that sound too and think some how it has a deeper meaning Can we answer and respond to lifes call with what ever it holds for us...

Jayne said...

Thank you! Jojo, Beautiful music that we make and respond to was placed in our souls. Love you!

Jayne said...

Thank you! Jojo, Beautiful music that we make and respond to was placed in our souls. Love you!

Title- The Studious One!

Title-  The Studious One!
artwork by Elyse

Of biscuits and syrup

Of biscuits and syrup
tasty treats

Happy Saturday!

Happy Saturday!
a day at the Raptor Center.

Widdle Emmie in outer space school

Emmie jumped on the bus and off it flew out into the atmosphere. There was a set of clouds with turbulence right above the house and it took a few minutes for my Emmie to buckle her seatbelt. They hit the bump hard and it knocked my Emmie out of her seat and she bumped her head. The video camera came on and the monitor looked through and stated, Ms. Emmie, where are you? You are not in your seat. Where are you? I am alright I fell because I hadn’t buckled correctly. Well jump up Emmie we have a long way to go and you have to be buckled there is entirely too much turbulence in the stratosphere for you to unbuckle now. As soon as we are through this weather system there will be straight sailing but right now you must buckle. Emmie scrambled into the seat with intensity and purpose now. She watched every cloud pass her window and her nose was pressed to the window trying to see the top of the house as it drifted slowly out of sight. Soon they were not only out of sight of the house, the sun came out brightly and just as quickly they were putting on the atmospherical breathing apparatus and the outerspherical lights. The ABA and the OL. These precautions were to make them appear to be satellites to the radar as they were out in the ionosphere. Emmie knew all about this now. She had gone to the orientation and had a good breakfast and it took them 20 minutes for her to get out past the atmospherical pull and to feel the zero gravity. It would be 15 minutes before the gravity simulators would take effect, a glitch in the system which was being worked on. Until then, they enjoyed the couple of minutes of floatation, while being connected to the seats by belt. The first thing they saw everyday was the strataflotsam. The items which had been dumped into the atmosphere by earlier generations. What would their generation do about this ecological waste area that remained floating above their heads? This was a question for the generations. For now it was the area that they had to guide through on the way to school.

Midnight at the OASIS

Midnight at the OASIS
Sunset in Huntersville

My little Emmie

ran to the bus on the first day of the last year of school. 2 buns on the side of her head. She kissed me and ran at dawn to the bus. She was starting the adventure of a lifetime. I would never see that little girl again, she was going to woman school!

My Father and I 1989

My Father and I 1989

to the tune of Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme

A VISIT TO PAPA











Are you going to Mary Immaculate?

Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



Remember me to the one who lived there,



He once was a true love of mine,



Tell him to buy me an acre of land,



Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



Between the muddy Hudson in Jamaica Bay,



Then, He’ll be a true love of mine,

Tell him to sow in it seeds of pure cream,



Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



And build Ice cream mountains and buildings of whipped cream,

Then, He’ll be a true love of mine,



Tell him to reap them with sickles of M&M’s,



Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



And chew bubble gum and eat till we’re done,



Then, He’ll be a true love of mine.



Tell him to run it off down the motor parkway,



Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



After your done 50 pushups



and jog down the West Side Highway,



Then he’ll be a true love of mine…

(Don’t wait for me today dad, The kids are sick again, My tummy’s bulging again, My heart is aching again, And now there’s no love there…)





He once was, a true love of mine….So, Girls, I do beg you don't miss your Daddy,Apricots, Chocolate cherries and Pie,You have one short chance to see him on this side, Go visit him and let your light shine.