Monday, June 29, 2009

Well, It is a new week and we have the summer fully in gear.

I have no babies now. I walked past the most adorable mother child couple at church and it was breathtaking and a little melancholic. For years we have seen this young couple floating through church. Up and down the corridors, inseparable. Their feet never touched the ground, so I couldn't reach them to make their acquaintance. Nobody wanted to, because they were glowing with love, the young couple. I love seeing love bloom, at church. They taught sunday school together and they did everything arm in arm or just steps away from eachother. Recently they dissappeared and it wasn't so obvious, because we go to a very large and very busy church where there are alot of other spectacles to admire other than the growing of new families.
Yesterday, I met them and I fell in love. Mommy and baby were standing 5 steps away from the proud papa, who now doesn't know what to do with his hands or feet. They are all on the ground now. The love baby's name is Eugene. I tried intently to get him to look away from momma, for just a second. Just a second look at me. It has been so long that I have not been the intense admiration of and infant's longing. I miss it, just look away for a second. No! He was mezmerized. He was intensely forming his lips to tell her how much he loved her in ooohs and ahhhs! I had so much to tell that momma. I couldn't say. I wanted to sit down with her and tell her not to miss one little ahhh. Because you blink and they are grown and sassy and love in another form. Your best game is played in the initial onset of the game of motherhood. All you see and all you do is care. That is like the short balls on the court and then you start your back court game and they get further and further from your gaze. Love is still intense, but you can never catch those ooooohs and aaaahhhs again. So don't look away too long. Try to balance your responsibilities without missing what you can never get back.
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Joanne Bodden said...

Hi Jayne
I love that performance of I wont Mind~ by Audra. It has become the fuel for my creative reboot so thanks for using it in your blog post. What a lovely family you describe. it's like a well nourished plant May God continue to bless them & you. It's a blessing to be able to see the gifts of others and enjoy them I hope the summer is chuck full with joy and fun !!! Mine is already.
Love you ,
Joanne

June 29, 2009 at 5:33 PM
Jayne said...

That song has given me fuel also. Learning to try to "spoil" the "little ones" a little bit. I made chocolate muffins on Saturday and Pancakes today. Trying always to find a "character actress" to pattern my motherhood on. That young mommy was good fuel also. Love you.

June 29, 2009 at 8:45 PM
jackie said...

are you serious i pray for quiet time :) up in here... to wish for a baby at this age i would be asking for no time for me :)
love the blogs all is well and we will miss mike but he his out of his misiery,,,,, of self hate

well, ok for now guys peace and love as dad always said

July 2, 2009 at 2:50 PM
Jayne said...

I am really not wishing for a new baby as much as reminiscing about the babies that are now grown. I use that song to motivate me to be what I can with the ones I have in the house with me now. Baking their favorite bread and so on. Love you!

July 3, 2009 at 9:19 AM

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Title- The Studious One!

Title- The Studious One!
artwork by Elyse

Of biscuits and syrup

Of biscuits and syrup
tasty treats

Happy Saturday!

Happy Saturday!
a day at the Raptor Center.

Widdle Emmie in outer space school

Emmie jumped on the bus and off it flew out into the atmosphere. There was a set of clouds with turbulence right above the house and it took a few minutes for my Emmie to buckle her seatbelt. They hit the bump hard and it knocked my Emmie out of her seat and she bumped her head. The video camera came on and the monitor looked through and stated, Ms. Emmie, where are you? You are not in your seat. Where are you? I am alright I fell because I hadn’t buckled correctly. Well jump up Emmie we have a long way to go and you have to be buckled there is entirely too much turbulence in the stratosphere for you to unbuckle now. As soon as we are through this weather system there will be straight sailing but right now you must buckle. Emmie scrambled into the seat with intensity and purpose now. She watched every cloud pass her window and her nose was pressed to the window trying to see the top of the house as it drifted slowly out of sight. Soon they were not only out of sight of the house, the sun came out brightly and just as quickly they were putting on the atmospherical breathing apparatus and the outerspherical lights. The ABA and the OL. These precautions were to make them appear to be satellites to the radar as they were out in the ionosphere. Emmie knew all about this now. She had gone to the orientation and had a good breakfast and it took them 20 minutes for her to get out past the atmospherical pull and to feel the zero gravity. It would be 15 minutes before the gravity simulators would take effect, a glitch in the system which was being worked on. Until then, they enjoyed the couple of minutes of floatation, while being connected to the seats by belt. The first thing they saw everyday was the strataflotsam. The items which had been dumped into the atmosphere by earlier generations. What would their generation do about this ecological waste area that remained floating above their heads? This was a question for the generations. For now it was the area that they had to guide through on the way to school.

Midnight at the OASIS

Midnight at the OASIS
Sunset in Huntersville

My little Emmie

ran to the bus on the first day of the last year of school. 2 buns on the side of her head. She kissed me and ran at dawn to the bus. She was starting the adventure of a lifetime. I would never see that little girl again, she was going to woman school!

My Father and I 1989

My Father and I 1989

to the tune of Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme

A VISIT TO PAPA











Are you going to Mary Immaculate?

Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



Remember me to the one who lived there,



He once was a true love of mine,



Tell him to buy me an acre of land,



Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



Between the muddy Hudson in Jamaica Bay,



Then, He’ll be a true love of mine,

Tell him to sow in it seeds of pure cream,



Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



And build Ice cream mountains and buildings of whipped cream,

Then, He’ll be a true love of mine,



Tell him to reap them with sickles of M&M’s,



Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



And chew bubble gum and eat till we’re done,



Then, He’ll be a true love of mine.



Tell him to run it off down the motor parkway,



Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,



After your done 50 pushups



and jog down the West Side Highway,



Then he’ll be a true love of mine…

(Don’t wait for me today dad, The kids are sick again, My tummy’s bulging again, My heart is aching again, And now there’s no love there…)





He once was, a true love of mine….So, Girls, I do beg you don't miss your Daddy,Apricots, Chocolate cherries and Pie,You have one short chance to see him on this side, Go visit him and let your light shine.