Friday, October 30, 2009

The simple joys of more hearts and loves than hands.

It is so interesting that a day like yesterday when a St. Bernard Dog can take up our attention and interest can disintegrate into conflicts and mumuring so swiftly. I am grateful for my family and my responsibilities, but it is on days like these when I am saying, like Elizabeth Browning, Lord, help me not to be buried under the days. The responsibilities are looming and growing and my energies seem to be waning and small. This makes me sad.
A simple reminder that a loving mother cares about clean clothes and the thought of the piles of laundry that haunt me, is a trigger, among other things. I love the line in the movie Yours Mine and Ours, with Lucille Ball when the whole family is getting adopted by one another and the judge tries to give a compliment to Lucille Ball saying that his wife had one or two children and couldn't keep up with her responsibilities at all. She comes back at him and says that it is often because she has an understanding husband that she is able to cope. I was encouraged by that and try to lift my spirits on days like this with the rememberance of the joys that are mounting higher than the laundry piles.
Somebody is always in love or hate with somebody else. Somebody is always laughing and somebody is always crying. It is a dizzying experience sometimes. Still, I am grateful for the experience and would never trade it for anything. God is everywhere. His word says that He is in the solitary, as well as in the crowd. I am learning to balance the experience of Him in both circumstances. I will blink my eyes and they will all be gone and the show will be over and the curtain will be down. So, I will rise on the next day to my role and my responsibility and whatever emotions are there, I will tie them together and play my part, with whatever strength is allowed me, today.

Maybe, I am missing my praise dancing this morning...:{

1 comment:

Joanne Bodden said...

I gotta eat my wheaties some days too. I notice I do have the strength I am just feeling lost and tired. The other day I realized just because something is complicated or difficult does not mean that you don't have to do it. Doing those things are very important. But doing the simple tasks everyday with devotion make those hard ones more manageable.

Title- The Studious One!

Title-  The Studious One!
artwork by Elyse

Of biscuits and syrup

Of biscuits and syrup
tasty treats

Happy Saturday!

Happy Saturday!
a day at the Raptor Center.

Widdle Emmie in outer space school

Emmie jumped on the bus and off it flew out into the atmosphere. There was a set of clouds with turbulence right above the house and it took a few minutes for my Emmie to buckle her seatbelt. They hit the bump hard and it knocked my Emmie out of her seat and she bumped her head. The video camera came on and the monitor looked through and stated, Ms. Emmie, where are you? You are not in your seat. Where are you? I am alright I fell because I hadn’t buckled correctly. Well jump up Emmie we have a long way to go and you have to be buckled there is entirely too much turbulence in the stratosphere for you to unbuckle now. As soon as we are through this weather system there will be straight sailing but right now you must buckle. Emmie scrambled into the seat with intensity and purpose now. She watched every cloud pass her window and her nose was pressed to the window trying to see the top of the house as it drifted slowly out of sight. Soon they were not only out of sight of the house, the sun came out brightly and just as quickly they were putting on the atmospherical breathing apparatus and the outerspherical lights. The ABA and the OL. These precautions were to make them appear to be satellites to the radar as they were out in the ionosphere. Emmie knew all about this now. She had gone to the orientation and had a good breakfast and it took them 20 minutes for her to get out past the atmospherical pull and to feel the zero gravity. It would be 15 minutes before the gravity simulators would take effect, a glitch in the system which was being worked on. Until then, they enjoyed the couple of minutes of floatation, while being connected to the seats by belt. The first thing they saw everyday was the strataflotsam. The items which had been dumped into the atmosphere by earlier generations. What would their generation do about this ecological waste area that remained floating above their heads? This was a question for the generations. For now it was the area that they had to guide through on the way to school.

Midnight at the OASIS

Midnight at the OASIS
Sunset in Huntersville

My little Emmie

ran to the bus on the first day of the last year of school. 2 buns on the side of her head. She kissed me and ran at dawn to the bus. She was starting the adventure of a lifetime. I would never see that little girl again, she was going to woman school!

My Father and I 1989

My Father and I 1989

to the tune of Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme


Are you going to Mary Immaculate?

Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,

Remember me to the one who lived there,

He once was a true love of mine,

Tell him to buy me an acre of land,

Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,

Between the muddy Hudson in Jamaica Bay,

Then, He’ll be a true love of mine,

Tell him to sow in it seeds of pure cream,

Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,

And build Ice cream mountains and buildings of whipped cream,

Then, He’ll be a true love of mine,

Tell him to reap them with sickles of M&M’s,

Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,

And chew bubble gum and eat till we’re done,

Then, He’ll be a true love of mine.

Tell him to run it off down the motor parkway,

Apricots, Chocolate Cherries and Pie,

After your done 50 pushups

and jog down the West Side Highway,

Then he’ll be a true love of mine…

(Don’t wait for me today dad, The kids are sick again, My tummy’s bulging again, My heart is aching again, And now there’s no love there…)

He once was, a true love of mine….So, Girls, I do beg you don't miss your Daddy,Apricots, Chocolate cherries and Pie,You have one short chance to see him on this side, Go visit him and let your light shine.